What am I holding onto?
is it not just a false ideal that will collapse
a situation in which there is nothing I can do
should I let go before I relapse
I dream all day and night
that I am a person of good
but I walk around full of spite
and assuming I am just misunderstood
How am I putting myself with the best
fostering the egotism that brings pride
but this person I am, I detest
and about my goodness I have lied
I say to myself I deserve this ideal
but as I open my eyes I begin to see
that perhaps it was not real
and I deceived myself in who I wanted to be
As if opening my eyes after a long sleep
my mind began to realize this was wrong
and everything starts to make sense as I weep
knowing that I chased this false ideal for so long
I awaken to know my mind is beautiful
and my heart is sound and full of light
the good in me is plentiful
and my soul full of delight
It was not I who was wrong
but this ideal I chased for so long
Loved reading it. Thanks for sharing and keep penning. Chk mine at www.preciousglories.blogspot.in
ReplyDeleteI feel that i can relate to this. Ive made the same mistake in chasing an ideal, or atleast a pre-made notion of how I thought life should be. The ideal came in many different forms, a person or an impressed moral value... Creating a sort of expectation. I hope you find or have found your answers
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