Have I Won?

And finally I am free at last

free from the pain of the past 

the pain that reaped my heart 

and everyday tore me apart

As if someone gave me life again

and I no longer have to pretend 

so sweet with a hint of refreshment 

and not a daunting feeling of discontentment 

I am free am I not?
but I can still feel my heart clot
there is something blocking hope
an I am unsure if I can cope

Yes I won in the monstrous fight
but I am still not sure if I am alright