The Pleasantry of Emotion

The turbulent storm has drifted into a calm

My soul has found peace in the gentle breeze

And my life fits perfectly into my palm

My heart is being carried with such graceful ease

And there is a voice, 

And there is a love

And there is a choice 

And there is something that I am in awe of

It shows itself in the most delicate of ways

It shows itself in comfort and the warmth of coals 

And in the smile that stays on my face for days 

As if it was the orchestration of millions of dancing souls

With the arms of a comfort I had forgotten, I am held

By the sweet songs of the night I am drifted into bliss

By darkness I am no longer compelled 

With the light of day I share a soulful kiss 

This rosy dream engulfs my heart, soul and mind

But it's aroma causes confusion and a forceful bind

It is pleasant and sweet but it takes me as it's own

But little does it know, that I have grown 

The Cycle of the Past

And right now I am somewhere between wanting to die and searching for love
And no matter how I try I can't find the right time or a strike from above
And some days you will find me staring over the edge trying to fall
And some days you will find me amidst the roses and under the sun as if time was in a stall

But I can't decide which one I want more
Or which one would be less of a chore
But I know one of the two would save me once and for all
Or do the opposite and turn me into a lifeless doll

I don't know if love will be able to save me before I decide my fate
But if this is all I can find from this life it might already be too late
I can't seem to find the balance between chaos and sweet dreams
But both options seem like impractical extremes

To search for love and put my sanity on the line
To stop what we call living and try to reach something more divine
But both could solve this delusional state
But at this time I am not willing to negotiate

So I am at a standstill and wondering what to do
Could there be another option, something else I could pursue?
I do not know today, and tomorrow may be the same
I want to know soon before I try to start this game

Uplifted

The simple outstretch of something unfamiliar
is taking my world with such beauty
it is at the very least ironically peculiar
and not a single voice can find a way to disagree

In this place I did not know how to find,
the words or actions to fix the endless gravity in my mind
but from but from the depths of something outta control
it took me by the hand with a mighty hold

I sit here with a mind cleared from the dark
and a spirit lifted with indescribable joy
but it was not from my efforts that it sparked
and it wasn't from my own made up ploy

And for the first time, I can be flooded with laughter
and my heart is almost hurting from all that is right
I only wish I had known before, that the darkness leaves,
 and this what's there after
and for once I know now, I know now that I found light