Let the Holidays Begin

The hidden sorrow among the cheer

is what is going to haunt me this year

the pain within the smile of joy

is just another holiday ploy

I will dance with happiness

I will live with a sense of peace

I will pretend to not be less 

I will pretend my spirit is not deceased 

But in pretending I will find my hope

And in pretending I will be anew 

with this cheery happiness I will elope 

and beautiful joy will be my new hue 

So let the spirit of Christmas wash over me

this year I will give in 

to this thing people want me to see 

and so let the holidays begin 

Someone

My hands shake as tears drench my skin
I look out, searching for an unknown thing
maybe looking for where happiness turned to sin
and what penetrated my once joyful way of thinking

I want to collapse, I need to fall
no longer can I carry myself
this burden I cannot haul
so please restore my health

Give me someone to walk beside
to hold me when I fall under the flames
that from them I won't have to hide
and with me they will bear my pains

If I am going to stand any longer
I need that person to make me stronger

Have I Won?

And finally I am free at last

free from the pain of the past 

the pain that reaped my heart 

and everyday tore me apart

As if someone gave me life again

and I no longer have to pretend 

so sweet with a hint of refreshment 

and not a daunting feeling of discontentment 

I am free am I not?
but I can still feel my heart clot
there is something blocking hope
an I am unsure if I can cope

Yes I won in the monstrous fight
but I am still not sure if I am alright