And so long as I don't stay in my mind
I am alive for another day
For in my mind I get lost and am hard to find
And in my thoughts forever I will lay
Just waiting for the break of day
The first time it hit me I fell hard to the ground
Crying in pain hoping that I had only lost my balance
But now it happens often and all I can do is make silent sound
And as I weep I tell myself my strength it will enhance
It is a plague, it is a curse and it is a nightmare
It leaves me in surrendering silence and anguish
Although dead in it's eyes I stare
It laughs at my simple wish
For it to go away
I am not okay today
I wasn't the day before
And so I am left in dismay
Left, hating what remains of my core
