I Will Get Up

A sudden hope has struck my world
a joy that makes everything seem right
and for once chaos is not being swirled
this hope has lightened my darkest night

Clarity has washed over me
happiness has engulfed my being
and every moment it gets easier to see
there is this want for feeling

The darkness has passed
the days of despair are no more
and I am free at last
gone is the pain that I once bore

While I know that pain will strike again
I now have the ability to fight
so I won't have to pretend
that everything is alright

I will be able to get up next time I fall
I have found something that I can never loose
and now I shall stand up tall
I will wipe off the dirt and tend the bruises

I Fall

The soft wind whispers in my ears
the coolness of the night strokes my face
and the darkness wipes away my tears
while an empty void becomes of this space

My mind tosses and turns
it tries to create sense
but this ever daunting thought burns
this trouble is too emmence

The life I had planned
the one that I want to live
it seems fate has banned
and is reluctant to give

I fall to the ground
with not just my body but my soul
there is spinning all around
and I am starting to loose control

I am hopeless, I am weak
there is nothing to bring light now
so courage I must seek
before I forget how

In Time

Just one more day
Just one more time
it is a lie I continue to say
because I know that in time it will not be mine

Just another touch
Just another word
although it is becoming too much
and keeping this up seems absurd

I wish and I dream
I hope and I pray
but nothing changes it seems
so now in desolation I lay

Why not now?
why cant this be
is there some way please tell me how
I only wish I could see

But yet it is wrong
and nothing is right
forever seems so long
like a never ending night

But I must leave
I must end this now
because this is becoming too heavy to heave
and I will now take a bow

I am sorry, that you know
I wish it could be
but I am afraid now I must go
and in time we will see

Darkness

We hide, we cower
we shield ourselves and pray
so that our light, darkness may not devour
and in fear we lay

But truth be told the darkness is a part of us
waiting to be acknowledged
waiting to be accepted, waiting for that trust
but instead of falling into a great pool of clarity we hang on the edge

For it is darkness that makes the light seem brighter
it is darkness that gives understanding
and sometimes with a bit of darkness the load can seem lighter
it is not pleading, it is not demanding

It is a part of each of us, something we must carry
we all have it, some more than others
and at times although it can bring fear and it can be scary
we must remember we cannot hide under the covers

The sooner we see it as a gift
the sooner we allow it to help us thrive
our humanity it will lift
it will help us grow and survive

Do not fear this part of yourself
do not hide it away
for it will bring great use one day

The Light

That light, the slight glimmer of hope
the one that appears every time you trust
the one that make you feel as if you can float
the love that feels like it could not rust

But then it does, something happens and it fades
the light, the one that had you holding on
and it turns out it was just another one of life's charades
suddenly everything feels wrong

The desire is still there and it won't leave
the love remains
so now instead of light it is the burden of darkness you must heave
and you feel so little like the sands simple grains

It happens again and again
am I not good enough
why can't my heart someone mend?
why is this so tough?

Will I always be the one who loves but will never be loved?
oh I wish this is not true
but to side I am shoved
and there is nothing I can do