Saturday, 27 April 2013

This Life is Mine

What are these talents I possess
what use are they for the world today
because I get the feeling they mean less and less
what more should I say

The gift of art, speech and word 
now these seem absurd
as a child they meant so much
but not now they are only worth a small bunch

I am told to disregard these gifts
to let them fade 
because my intelligence it does not lift
being able to draw does not make a business made

It does not matter if my creativity is my dream
or if it is my desire
because in the end what does it mean
they say in the end it will only make me tire

they say I have no chance to make it into that world
the world of the greats, the ones who society they have swirled 
they tell me to give up now and focus on the things that will "sustain" me in time
but this life is mine

I will take my chance, if I fall then I fall 
and I will get back up and stand up tall 
I will go the way that my heart desires
not the way the world conspires

They can wish whatever they please for me
but that will not come about they will see
sorry world, I am going my own way, my own path
and I guess we will see the after-math 

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

With Me

I turn my back and it is gone
yet I can still feel it holding on
I turn the lights off and it's there
just waiting to sit and stare

I can feel it behind me and all around me
this, this thing that never seems to go
why won't it leave!?
why did it choose me to which its presence must overflow?

I see it in whisps like something of a dream
although strangely I never want to scream
I feel it and I know it is there just waiting
and yet it is not the thing that I am hating

It is there and it almost never leaves
it is there and it seems to calm and bring me ease
am I just as bad as this thing?
why not fear and tremble it bring?

Have I grown so cold this monster I befriend?
could this be it, my heartless end
the proof that there is nothing there
not any love, not any care?

This monster it is with me
its shadow I see
it brings me comfort for my heart
although the coldness has already began to start